I get knocked down, but I get up again.

Sometimes I think overcoming depression is about one skill: the ability to keep getting up after being knocked down. And pushed over. And stepped on. It’s about picking yourself up off the floor over and over and over again, even when you think you JUST CAN’T GET UP EVEN ONE MORE TIME; even when you’re convinced you’re going to lie in bed until you waste away to nothing.

Overcoming depression is about persistence, and fortitude.

Ironically, those skills tend to be in short supply when depression rears its ugly head.

When the storms come, I think it’s about having the strength to seek out ways to stay dry; to keep looking for solutions, to keep trying new techniques, to keep searching for answers ad infinitum.

Basically, it’s about staying focused on feeling better until you figure out how to feel better. It’s about NEVER GIVING UP.

Depression is a different battle for everyone. It shares common attributes, of course: feelings of worthlessness, hopelessness, alienation, self-loathing and so on. But the healing process, the journey out of the darkness, is utterly unique.

For some people, medication and therapy are key. For others, it’s all about lifestyle changes. For still others, it’s about cultivating self-compassion. The key is trying all the avenues ’til you find one that works.

When you’re depressed, it’s hard to get back up. SO HARD. In fact, getting back up is probably the last thing in the world you want to do. Personally, when I’m depressed I just want to stay prone until I vanish into the ground cover like so much mulch.

But here’s the thing: we HAVE to keep getting back up. WE DESERVE IT. We deserve happiness, and it’s waiting for us — it’s there for the taking, if we keep fighting for it.

As long as we’re alive, there’s hope. There’s ALWAYS hope, gleaming at the end of even the darkest and longest of tunnels. Hope springs eternal, and it’s so important to keep a firm grasp on it, no matter how many times you get knocked down. Cling to that hope with every little bit of who you are.

In the words of Vince Lombardi: “It’s not whether you get knocked down, it’s whether you get up.” So keep getting up. I’m right there with you.

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4 Responses

  1. Sherisse says:

    Thank you for writing this now. I needed it. I have been shrouded in ‘darkness’ for a while now and recently it’s gotten worse. Sometimes it really does feel like there’s no end in sight…your post reminded me of the one thing I keep clinging to at the end of a hard, cold day: hope! God bless you, Hannah, for all that you do.

    • Hannah says:

      What a lovely comment Sherisse! Thank you for making my day. <3 Hang in there, hope is a beautiful thing. Lots of love. xoxo

  2. Theresa says:

    Dear Hannah,

    I know how you are feeling, and I have been getting better and better every month.
    Even though once I thought I could never get up ever again, I am now studying architecture (and I am scared like shit every day) and fighting to overcome all these doubts. So – long story short, I have been following your blog for a while, you are such a brave person and you will make it! Never, never give up 🙂

    Lots of Love from Berlin,

    • Hannah says:

      You’re such a sweetheart, Teresa! <3 How awesome that you're studying architecture and facing your fears. Congrats! Thank you so much for your kind and thoughtful message, and for sharing your story. Oodles of love right back at ya from Miami. 😉

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